Fighting a brain tumour, being a dad, trusting God, writing music
Being completely honest, lying in that hospital bed back in February, I wasn't sure I even had another father's day left in me. The people that know me and the people that are getting to know me will see that I love being a dad - my beautiful girls are genuinely my heaven on earth and there is absolutely nothing in this world I want more than to protect them, nurture them and simply love them.
It's been 4 months now but in many ways I feel like I'm having to rebuild myself every day still. Getting up in the morning knowing that you've got this "thing" in your head is not easy. Sometimes I look in the mirror and that's all I see
"There are decades where nothing happens; and then there are weeks where decades happen"
...what makes me sad and vulnerable is thinking about my daughters... I love being with them and I don't want to leave them...
There's a global pandemic, the economy is in crisis, we're shackled by restrictions from seeing our loved ones and increasingly worried about catching coronavirus. So its pretty understandable if your mental health has taken a bashing! I know mine has.
Just to be clear - that initial feeling of doom & gloom is completely natural and acceptable, your world just got shaken so much that it's literally going to change everything from here on in - every relationship, every choice, every feeling...I think you get the picture, everything!
Just to give you some basic background information, I am 34, was born, lived, studied and worked in London all my life. On Tuesday 4th Feb 2020 (a day which I have now renamed as my "Rebirth"!), I left work early to get myself home as I wasn't quite feeling myself - upon reflection, I hadn't really been feeling myself for a couple of days but I had put it down to the fact that maybe I was just a little run down.
Music has always been my greatest passion but now more than ever it has proved to be a great source of strength for the new journey that i'm on - it has allowed me to escape reality at times but also given me a platform to express my emotions.
I was born and brought up in a loving Christian home, I was Dedicated (dedication) as a child and voluntarily took adult Baptism (Baptism) when I was 16 years old although looking back on it, probably more out of a sense of duty rather than my closeness with God - let me be very clear about something, I have always believed in God and I have always loved God
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