I'm conflicted because my unwelcome friend is a blessing and a curse - of course I would much rather not have it in my head but it brought me to a crossroads in my life that resurrected the fighter in me to go and achieve the things I want, to control what I can, to use the talents I have, to pursue my passions, to work towards my dreams, to basically be the best version of me that I can be.

It's been 4 months now but in many ways I feel like I'm having to rebuild myself every day still. Getting up in the morning knowing that you've got this "thing" in your head is not easy. Sometimes I look in the mirror and that's all I see

There's a global pandemic, the economy is in crisis, we're shackled by restrictions from seeing our loved ones and increasingly worried about catching coronavirus. So its pretty understandable if your mental health has taken a bashing! I know mine has.

Just to be clear - that initial feeling of doom & gloom is completely natural and acceptable, your world just got shaken so much that it's literally going to change everything from here on in - every relationship, every choice, every feeling...I think you get the picture, everything!

Just to give you some basic background information, I am 34, was born, lived, studied and worked in London all my life. On Tuesday 4th Feb 2020 (a day which I have now renamed as my "Rebirth"!), I left work early to get myself home as I wasn't quite feeling myself - upon reflection, I hadn't really been feeling myself for a couple of days but I had put it down to the fact that maybe I was just a little run down.